ARTHUR DIMMESDALE gazed into Hester's face with a look in which hope
and joy shone out, indeed, but with fear betwixt them, and a kind of
horror at her boldness, who had spoken what he vaguely hinted at,
but dared not speak.
But Hester Prynne, with a mind of native courage and activity, and
for so long a period not merely estranged, but outlawed, from society,
had habituated herself to such latitude of speculation as was
altogether foreign to the clergyman. She had wandered, without rule or
guidance, in a moral wilderness; as vast, as intricate and shadowy, as
the untamed forest, amid the gloom of which they were now holding a
colloquy that was to decide their fate. Her intellect and heart had
their home, as it were, in desert places, where she roamed as freely
as the wild Indian in his woods. For years past she had looked from
this estranged point of view at human institutions, and whatever
priests or legislators had established; criticising all with hardly
more reverence than the Indian would feel for the clerical band, the
judicial robe, the pillory, the gallows, the fireside, or the
church. The tendency of her fate and fortunes had been to set her
free. The scarlet letter was her passport into regions where other
women dared not tread. Shame, Despair, Solitude! These had been her
teachers- stern and wild ones- and they had made her strong, but
taught her much amiss.
The minister, on the other hand, had never gone through an
experience calculated to lead him beyond the scope of generally
received laws; although, in a single instance, he had so fearfully
transgressed one of the most sacred of them. But this had been a sin
of passion, not of principle, nor even purpose. Since that wretched
epoch, he had watched, with morbid zeal and minuteness, not his
acts- for those it was easy to arrange- but each breath of emotion,
and his every thought. At the head of the social system, as the
clergyman of that day stood, he was only the more trammelled by its
regulations, its principles, and even its prejudices. As a priest, the
framework of his order inevitably hemmed him in. As a man who had once
sinned, but who kept his conscience all alive and painfully
sensitive by the fretting of an unhealed wound, he might have been
supposed safer within the line of virtue than if he had never sinned
at all.
Thus, we seem to see that, as regarded Hester Prynne, the whole
seven years of outlaw and ignominy had been little other than a
preparation for this very hour. But Arthur Dimmesdale! Were such a man
once more to fall, what plea could be urged in extenuation of his
crime? None; unless it avail him somewhat, that he was broken down
by long and exquisite suffering; that his mind was darkened and
confused by the very remorse which harrowed it; that, between
fleeing as an avowed criminal, and remaining as a hypocrite,
conscience might find it hard to strike the balance; that it was human
to avoid the peril of death and infamy, and the inscrutable
machinations of an enemy; that, finally, to this poor pilgrim, on
his dreary and desert path, faint, sick, miserable, there appeared a
glimpse of human affection and sympathy, a new life, and a true one,
in exchange for the heavy doom which he was now expiating. And be
the stern and sad truth spoken, that the breach which guilt has once
made into the human soul is never, in this mortal state, repaired.
It may be watched and guarded; so that the enemy shall not force his
way again into the citadel, and might even, in his subsequent
assaults, select some other avenue, in preference to that where he had
formerly succeeded. But there is still the ruined wall, and, near
it, the stealthy tread of the foe that would win over again his
unforgotten triumph.
The struggle, if there were one, need not be described. Let it
suffice, that the clergyman resolved to flee, and not alone.
"If, in all these past seven years," thought he, "I could recall one
instant of peace or hope, I would yet endure, for the sake of that
earnest of Heaven's mercy. But now- since I am irrevocably doomed-
wherefore should I not snatch the solace allowed to the condemned
culprit before his execution? Or, if this be the path to a better
life, as Hester would persuade me, I surely give up no fairer prospect
by pursuing it! Neither can I any longer live without her
companionship; so powerful is she to sustain- so tender to soothe! O
Thou to whom I dare not lift mine eyes, wilt Thou yet pardon me!"
"Thou wilt go!" said Hester calmly, as he met her glance.
The decision once made, a glow of strange enjoyment threw its
flickering brightness over the trouble of his breast. It was the
exhilarating effect- upon a prisoner just escaped from the dungeon
of his own heart- of breathing the wild, free atmosphere of an
unredeemed, unchristianised, lawless region. His spirit rose, as it
were, with a bound, and attained a nearer prospect of the sky, than
throughout all the misery which had kept him grovelling on the
earth. Of a deeply religious temperament, there was inevitably a tinge
of the devotional in his mind.
"Do I feel joy again?" cried he, wondering at himself. "Methought
the germ of it was dead in me! O Hester, thou art my better angel! I
seem to have flung myself- sick, sin-stained, and sorrow-blackened-
down upon these forest-leaves, and to have risen up all made anew, and
with new powers to glorify Him that hath been merciful! This is
already the better life! Why did we not find it sooner?"
"Let us not look back," answered Hester Prynne. "the past is gone!
Wherefore should we linger upon it now? See! With this symbol, I
undo it all, and make it as it had never been!"
So speaking, she undid the clasp that fastened the scarlet letter,
and, taking it from her bosom, threw it to a distance among the
withered leaves. The mystic token alighted on the hither verge of
the stream. With a hand's breadth farther flight it would have
fallen into the water, and have given the little brook another woe
to carry onward, besides the unintelligible tale which it still kept
murmuring about. But there lay the embroidered letter, glittering like
a lost jewel, which some ill-fated wanderer might pick up, and
thenceforth be haunted by strange phantoms of guilt, sinkings of the
heart, and unaccountable misfortune.
The stigma gone, Hester heaved a long, deep sigh, in which the
burden of shame and anguish departed from her spirit. Oh, exquisite
relief! She had not known the weight, until she felt the freedom! By
another impulse, she took off the formal cap that confined her hair;
and down it fell upon her shoulders, dark and rich, with at once a
shadow and a light in its abundance, and imparting the charm of
softness to her features. There played around her mouth, and beamed
out of her eyes, a radiant and tender smile, that seemed gushing
from the very heart of womanhood. A crimson flush was glowing on her
cheek, that had been long so pale. Her sex, her youth, and the whole
richness of the beauty, came back from what men call the irrevocable
past, and clustered themselves, with her maiden hope, and a
happiness before unknown, within the magic circle of this hour. And,
as if the gloom of the earth and sky had been but the effluence of
these two mortal hearts, it vanished with their sorrow. All at once,
as with a sudden smile of heaven, forth burst the sunshine, pouring
a very flood into the obscure forest, gladdening each green leaf,
transmuting the yellow fallen ones to gold, and gleaming adown the
grey trunks of the solemn trees. The objects that had made a shadow
hitherto, embodied the brightness now. The course of the little
brook might be traced by its merry gleam afar into the wood's heart of
mystery, which had become a mystery of joy.
Such was the sympathy of Nature- that wild, heathen Nature of the
forest, never subjugated by human law, nor illumined by higher
truth- with the bliss of these two spirits! Love, whether newly
born, or aroused from a death-like slumber, must always create a
sunshine, filling the heart so full of radiance, that it overflows
upon the outward world. Had the forest still kept its gloom, it
would have been bright in Hester's eyes, and bright in Arthur
Dimmesdale's!
Hester looked at him with the thrill of another joy.
"Thou must know Pearl!" said she. "Our little Pearl! Thou hast
seen her- yes, I know it!- but thou wilt see her now with other
eyes. She is a strange child! I hardly comprehend her! But thou wilt
love her dearly, as I do, and wilt advise me how to deal with her."
"Dost thou think the child will be glad to know me?" asked the
minister, somewhat uneasily. "I have long shrunk from children,
because they often show a distrust- a backwardness to be familiar with
me. I have even been afraid of little Pearl!"
"Ah, that was sad!" answered the mother. "But she will love thee
dearly, and thou her. She is not far off. I will call her! Pearl!
Pearl!"
"I see the child," observed the minister. "Yonder she is, standing
in a streak of sunshine, a good way off, on the other side of the
brook, So thou thinkest the child will love me?"
Hester smiled, and again called to Pearl, who was visible, at some
distance, as the minister had described her, like a
bright-apparelled vision, in a sunbeam, which fell down upon her
through an arch of boughs. The ray quivered to and fro, making her
figure dim or distinct- now like a real child, now like a child's
spirit- as the splendour went and came again. She heard her mother's
voice, and approached slowly through the forest.
Pearl had not found the hour pass wearisomely, while her mother
sat talking with the clergyman. The great black forest- stern as it
showed itself to those who brought the guilt and troubles of the world
into its bosom- became the playmate of the lonely infant, as well as
it knew how. Sombre as it was, it put on the kindest of its moods to
welcome her. It offered her the partridge-berries, the growth of the
preceding autumn, but ripening only in the spring, and now red as
drops of blood upon the withered leaves. These Pearl gathered, and was
pleased with their wild flavour. The small denizens of the
wilderness hardly took pains to move out of her path. A partridge,
indeed, with a brood of ten behind her, ran forward threatingly, but
soon repented of her fierceness, and clucked to her young ones not
to be afraid. A pigeon, alone on a low branch, allowed Pearl to come
beneath, and uttered a sound as much of greeting as alarm. A squirrel,
from the lofty depths of his domestic tree, chattered either in
anger or merriment- for a squirrel is such a choleric and humorous
little personage, that it is hard to distinguish between his moods- so
he chattered at the child, and flung down a nut upon her head. It
was a last year's nut, and already gnawed by his sharp tooth. A fox,
startled from his sleep by her light footstep on the leaves, looked
inquisitively at Pearl, as doubting whether it were better to steal
off, or renew his nap on the same spot. A wolf, it is said- but here
the tale has surely lapsed into the improbable- came up, and smelt
of Pearl's robe, and offered his savage head to be patted by her hand.
The truth seems to be, however, that the mother-forest, and these wild
things which it nourished, all recognised a kindred wildness in the
human child.
And she was gentler here than in the grassy-margined streets of
the settlement, or in her mother's cottage. The flowers appeared to
know it; and one and another whispered as she passed, "Adorn thyself
with me, thou beautiful child, adorn thyself with me!"- and, to please
them, Pearl gathered the violets, and anemones, and columbines, and
some twigs of the freshest green, which the old trees held down before
her eyes. With these she decorated her hair, and her young waist,
and became a nymph-child, or an infant dryad, or whatever else was
in closest sympathy with the antique wood. In such guise had Pearl
adorned herself, when she heard her mother's voice, and came slowly
back.
Slowly; for she saw the clergyman!